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Post by niscala on Apr 1, 2013 6:33:10 GMT -5
Recently an ISKCON guru posted on facebook a criticism of devotees who had a strong desire for Radha and Radha Kunda but lacked simple etiquette, and he likened approaching Krsna/Radha for a personal relationship, even though unqualified, to approaching a president-we may get shot at or arrested. I personally thought this was going too far, though I agreed with the gist of what he was getting at, so I wrote the following, which is my understanding:
But Krsna is not like that psychotic president, whose attendants shoot those who want to approach him. He is an ocean of love. "As you take one step towards Krsna, He takes ten steps towards you" Even so, there is immature desire, or premature desire, which may come from anarthas that resemble the bhakti creeper. This means that one may want to be seen as a very advanced devotee, and the raganuga path may facilitate that, for anarthas rise from bhakti herself, as much as watering a plant automatically waters the weeds that eventually choke it. But if one simply desires a relationship with Krsna, thats good. One should desire it. The symptom that one is doing it for the right motivation is that one is immersed in the meditation, and the outward effect is that it melts the heart and one shows, pridelessness, gratitude, simplicity and other qualities of advanced vaisnavas.The meditation on Krsna lila has this effect because the Vrindavan inhabitants that one is meditating on display all these characteristics. One learns from them, by associating with them through meditation, and it transforms one's character. It will not however, if the meditation or outward discussion is only for show or to be set apart from the vaidhi bhaktas, to be "a cut above the rest". That kind of pride will only breed more pride. The gopis aspire to be an insignificant dust particle on the Lord's lotus feet. Their joy is to push everyone upward, and remain in insignificance personally. On the external platform, this desire to push everyone upward and nearer to Krsna takes the form of preaching - not for becoming a renowned preacher, but for the sheer joy of seeing lives transformed. So we need not worry that devotees are interested in raganuga. If they are qualified, they will succeed, for the Lords devotees are never vanquished. If they are unqualified, there will be no effect, for the beginning point is lobha.
So my question is this. Is there an outward appearance of lobha which may not be the real thing, but even to oneself, it appears the real thing? Is there value in the warnings not to traverse the raganuga path too soon?
I'd like to get others thoughts on this. By "too soon" ,I mean not in material time, number of years of service etc, but "too soon" as in before one has developed the ability to discern what is one's inner motivation, whether it be weed or creeper, desire for fame and prestige or desire to participate in Krsna lila and become His lowly and insignificant maidservant. If one's desire for material fame as an advanced raganuga devotee is very strong, then it may appear to be lobha to oneself and others. We see at times, acaryas criticized overt displays of ecstacy, and they tried to hide their own. They seemed very keenly aware of the power of maya to cast a shadow on their path, in the form of allurement of admiration and approval. It appears in ISKCON, a tendency to take their words of caution too far, and condemn all aspiring raganuga practitioners as insincere. This to me, is like heeding the road signs and coming to the conclusion "I better not drive then, just to be safe!" The warnings are there to protect us, not to discourage or place limitations. Unless we realize why we are being warned, we can't take advantage of the warnings- and will either avoid the raganuga path altogether or assume that all enthusiasm for it is pure lobha. So it seems to me that we should neither be disempowered by knowledge and awareness of our anarthas, and neither should we be ignorant of them.
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Post by Sunanda das on Apr 1, 2013 20:07:05 GMT -5
Great question Mother Niscala. And great replies to your own question too. I have read many nice articles by you in the past. Like the saying goes, "Damned if you do, and damned if you don't". I have only recently delved into this topic of raganuga bhakti (after years of thinking it unecessary), and found a lot of confirmations for my interest in Uttamasloka's book. It has given me a lot of solace to have gained this knowledge and deeper understanding of the higher aspirations on the devotional path at a time in my life when there is a lot of confusion about ISKCON, my own service to Srila Prabhupada, and a lot of things around me seem to simply be quite askew.
I think one of the keys to finding an answer to your question is in offenseless chanting. Not that I have perfectly achieved this stage, but sometimes I feel chanting is my only refuge and hope at a time when I don't have many options. I cry out to Krishna more and it seems the reply comes back to me in the form of deeper understandings of Krishna and, as you said, an even deeper awareness of my own shortcomings and discrepancies. I simply have to cry louder and harder.
Perhaps Krishna puts us in situations and circumstances where we are forced to develop some lobha, or else. This certainly seems to be Uttamasloka's story. It's hard to develop lobha when things are going honky dory on the external plane. Suffering is the whip of maya, but that whip is meant to wake us up. Humility is hopefully the result. And we can't chant offenselessly and with feeling without humility.
I asked Uttamasloka, "What about Srila Prabhupada's statement, 'Work now, Samadhi later'", and he replied, "It is later for most of us (Godbrothers and sisters)". The fact that you are asking these questions and considering all these angles means you are progressing to some higher stages of spiritual development. Srila Prabhupada has blessed you with this awareness so you can move in that direction with caution and enthusiasm simultaneously and not just be a cheater, to yourself and others. Follow your heart. Tesam satata yuktanam, bajatam priti purvakam......and chant offenselessly.
Sunanda das (ACBSP)
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Post by Uttamasloka on Apr 2, 2013 0:16:28 GMT -5
Great questions Niscala prabhu. There are a number of considerations that come to mind. The first is one's level of anartha-nivritti. If one has not progressed to the point where one's anarthas have been sufficiently reduced, and those anarthas are a constant source of distraction and cause of problems, it would be very difficult for one to focus on the sadhana and bhajana of raganuga-bhakti in a meaningful way, if at all.
Most admonitions by wary devotees/gurus are concerned with this point. Even if genuine lobha has begun to manifest, if one has not established nistha in one's practice, it's not likely that significant progress can be made. In that case, the manifestation of lobha should provide an incentive to establish nistha in one's practices, along with further anartha-nivritti required to maintain that position.
Honesty about one's actual status on the path is paramount at all times. Honesty in that sense also includes humility and constant introspection to make sure you aren't fooling yourself. Constant communication with Krsna and one's guru are required to keep that level of vigilance. Good association is also a big blessing because it gives us alternate perspectives, guidance and confirmation.
Sunanda's recommendation regarding offenseless chanting is always a given and very important as well. Most devotees who are learning about the path of raganuga are not in a realistic position, either materially or spiritually, to chant 64 rounds every day, so a more balanced approach is to focus on regular hearing/sravanam to nourish one's chanting, both of which directly stimulate one's smaranam, qualitatively and quantitatively. I mentioned 64 rounds because many devotees are under the impression that raganuga-bhakti requires that daily quota, which is not true.
When you combine all of the above considerations you have a realistic and practical program that covers the most important aspects per your queries. By bringing these elements together in your life in this way, along with Krsna's constant internal guidance and the mercy of one's guru, you are acting with the necessary prudence recommended by our acaryas.
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Post by Uttamasloka on Apr 2, 2013 0:34:50 GMT -5
Sunanda prabhu: I had a few more thoughts about that well known statement by Srila Prabhupada. As I mentioned to you, samadhi in raganuga-bhajana is not possible until the advanced stages of asakti and bhava. So I see several levels of understanding Prabhupada's statement to us back in the 70s.
The first understanding is that none us had a clue what samadhi really is, other than 'deep meditation'. In truth, samadhi for a raganuga sadhaka means they are actually engaged in the lila in their siddha-deha (advanced asakti) or in their svarupa-siddhi form (bhava-bhakti), as awarded by Krsna at the stage of bhava. So it's not exactly meditation as in deep thought, but rather, it is direct engagement in the lila.
From BVT's Harinama-cintamani:
The coming of the appropriation stage.
When one’s meditation on one’s identity becomes fixed in samadhi, then the stage of full appropriation of that identity comes about. HC, 15.94
The practitioner’s state of being at that time.
At that time, identification with one’s spiritual form entirely overcomes the influence of the material body. After achieving this state, one is at every moment present in that form in Vraja, where he sees the Vrndavana forests through that form that he has made his own. HC, 15.95-96
Bhaktivinoda Thakura’s notes:
In the stage of appropriation, one’s sense of identity with the external material body is abandoned and one’s identification with the spiritual identity and form takes over. At this stage, one resides constantly in Vraja in one’s original spiritual form. As one is now engaged in serving Sri Sri Radha and Krsna in that identity, one experiences the dawning of a great pleasure.
As such, one remains absorbed in visions of Vrndavana Dhama, one feels completely fixed in the spiritual identity and has visions of the Divine Couple’s transcendental pastimes as if they had become manifest.
With this deeper understanding of samadhi, it's clear what Prabhupada meant by "later"! Not only did we not understand the facts, we were a million miles away from being qualified.
Even knowing these facts now, samadhi is still not something to be considered by those just learning about or entering the path of raganuga-bhakti, because the requisite stage of advanced asakti is not easily or quickly attained.
So those entering raganuga-bhakti will still have an active external life of service to guru and to helping the fallen conditioned souls. Thus, "work now, samadhi later" still applies, but with a new frame of reference.
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Post by Sunanda das on Apr 3, 2013 0:14:02 GMT -5
Thanks for the additional thoughts, Uttamasloka. To personalize it in a way that may also be helpful for others, I am not at the point where I can immerse myself in any kind of deep raganuga bajan, but I have come to a point where I see clearly what this stage is and that it is highly desirable to achieve it, and I should aspire to increase that desire and really eliminate those anarthas, etc. which hold me back. In Srila Prabhupada's time I remember hearing the example given that if you don't have the desire to serve Krishna, then desire to desire to serve Krishna. And if you don't even have the desire to desire, then desire to desire to desire, etc., etc. That much sincerity we need to get. So at this point I'm still looking at raganuga from the outside of the bottle and desiring to taste it, and offenseless chanting is my way of crying out to Krishna to help me get there. Below is a lecture by Srila Prabhupada about this eagerness:
"…Visnujana: How do we render perfect service to Krsna?
Prabhupada: By your anxiety.
If you are anxious to serve Krsna, that is the real asset.
Krsna is unlimited. What service we can offer to Him?
And He has got unlimited servants also.
What service He requires from you and me?
He's perfect in Himself.
He doesn't require any service also.
But if you are anxious to serve Him, then He does not refuse.
That is His mercy; that is His magnanimity.
So the more you increase your anxiety to serve Krsna, the more it becomes perfect.
He's unlimited.
Your anxiety, you become unlimited.
So there is competition.
The more you serve Krsna, the more He accepts you and the more He gives you intelligence.
You see?
So the spiritual world is unlimited.
There is no end of service, and there is no end of accepting the service.
It is not that.
So eagerness. Tatra laulyam eka mulyam.
I am not manufacturing the answer, but I am giving you evidence from Rupa Gosvami, our acarya.
He says, krsna-bhakti-rasa-bhavita matih kriyatam yadi kuto 'pi labhyate:
"My dear gentlemen, my dear boys and girls, if you can purchase a..., your sense of loving Krsna -- 'How I can love Krsna more and more' -- this, this much, this anxiety, if you can purchase this matih," -- means intelligence; it is very nice intelligence -- " 'How I shall serve Krsna...' " Krsna-bhakti-rasa-bhavita matih. Matih means intelligence or status of mind, that "I'll serve Krsna." "If you can purchase this status of mind anywhere, please immediately purchase."
Then next question will be, "All right, I shall purchase. What is the price, do you know?"
"Yes, I know what is the price."
"What is that price?"
"Laulyam, simply your eagerness, that's all." Laulyam ekam mulyam.
"Ah, that I can have."
No.
Na janma kotibhis sukrtibhir labhyate.
This eagerness, how to love Krsna, this is not available even after many, many births.
So if you have a pinch of that anxiety, "How I can serve Krsna?" you must know you are the most fortunate man.
A pinch only, laulya, this anxiety, "How I can serve Krsna?" it is very nice.
Then Krsna will give you intelligence.
tesam satata-yuktanam bhajatam priti-purvakam buddhi-yogam dadami tam...
"Anyone who is engaged with love and affection in My service, without any hypocrisy," then Krsna can understand everything.
He is within me, within you.
Then He will give you intelligence:
"My dear boy, you do like this."
And by doing that, what he will achieve?
Yena mam upayanti te: "He'll come back to Me."
And what profit he will get by going there?
Ah, yad gatva na nivartante tad dhama paramam mama .
Mam hi partha vyapasritya ye 'pi syuh papa-yonayah .
Duhkhalayam asasvatam .
There are so many.
Please read Bhagavad-gita As It Is.
You'll get perfect knowledge, the science of God.
That is the only study for human being.
So simply your eagerness is the perfection for serving Krsna.
Increase that eagerness.
And eagerness means if you love Krsna, that eagerness will increase with your increase of love: "How I shall serve Krsna?"
Because you are voluntary servant, nobody is forcing.
That means unless you love Krsna, how that eagerness will increase?
So there are so many things to love Krsna.
Beginning is this sravanam kirtanam.
This sravanam, hearing, and chanting.
Hearing, you are hearing Hare Krsna, you are hearing Bhagavad-gita, you are hearing Srimad-Bhagavatam about Krsna, and chanting.
This is the beginning. Then, naturally,
sravanam kirtanam visnoh smaranam pada-sevanam arcanam vandanam dasyam sakhyam atma-nivedanam [SB 7.5.23]
These nine kinds of different varieties of service to Krsna will enlighten you, will advance you in Krsna consciousness, and your life will be successful. . ."
(Lecture - Seattle, October 4, 1968)
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Post by niscala on Apr 3, 2013 4:54:42 GMT -5
Uttama: With this deeper understanding of samadhi, it's clear what Prabhupada meant by "later"! Not only did we not understand the facts, we were a million miles away from being qualified.
Right, as if later means eternally later! It certainly doesn't mean "never" or after a particular span of time, but just not now (when he was speaking). How much later depends on qualification and understanding.
Sunanda: but I have come to a point where I see clearly what this stage is and that it is highly desirable to achieve it
Me too, that's exactly where I am at. I think Uttama's book facilitates that, though it may have started earlier on for you and others. It certainly gives clarity and also focus and purpose to chanting. It motivates. I think without it, there is the possibility of getting stuck in a rut and falling for something other than the real thing. The amazing thing about the acarya's writing on this topic is that they exude authenticity, like they are already experiencing something extraordinary and not just passing on what they have heard. That they write about it, means they want us as much as possible to follow them, otherwise why share it? Thanks for both your replies. Both are awesome and I'm glad to have your association.
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Post by Uttamasloka on Apr 3, 2013 15:17:57 GMT -5
Sunanda: Thanks for that quote from Prabhupada. He was telling us all along. I also mentioned in my book in chapter 3 on Lobha, that, 'we have to want to be greedy'. Materialists will think we're nuts for thinking like that! ;D
The key to raganuga is the awakening of one's desired rasa/relationship with Krsna. Without that, raganuga cannot begin. So the very first stage is to contemplate and pray to Prabhupada for his blessings and pray to Krsna to awaken that understanding. It doesn't even have to be a big revelation with full details either, as explained by Jiva Gosvami.
Jiva Gosvami also confirms the qualifications for the awakening of one’s rasa in his Bhaktisandarbha:
For this reason we will now discuss raganuga-bhakti, the practice of devotion following in the wake of the moods of natural affection. When a person develops a taste for the aforesaid specific raga [i.e., any of the four major rasas], even though that raga itself has not arisen in her or him, the heart becomes like a crystal, shining as it reflects the rays of the moon of that raga.
By hearing about this raga from scripture or from one’s teacher, one develops a taste for the actions of the ragatmika associates also, that are expressions of this ragatmika-bhakti. Then by adhering to the raga of a particular associate of the Lord, according to one’s taste, one executes devotion, which is called raganuga. BS, Anuccheda 310
Once that awakening has begun, one's desires will increase accordingly. This is especially true when you have a clear understanding of the details of raganuga-bhakti and its processes, which is one of the main purposes for my writing this book - learning the facts about the path of raga. That is what Niscala is describing and it is wonderful for me to hear her confirmation of that. This knowledge is very inspiring and it should give one great hope.
Even for those beginning raganuga-bhakti, focused meditation is not possible right away. It is a gradual development, learning how to internalize your sadhana into bhajan. Here's an excerpt from my book from chapter 5, regarding the stage of Smarana-dasa, the stage of remembering. These stages also correspond to the final stages of progress on the path of bhakti, ie: nistha, ruci, asakti, bhava/prema.
Jiva Gosvami describes these five stages of remembering in Bhakti-sandarbha, but first, just to make it even more complex and interesting, he describes four progressive steps specific to contemplating Krsna:
Just as we have discussed that hearing and singing generally proceed in a certain order – from the Lord’s names, to His forms, attributes and finally His pastimes – remembrance of the Lord should also be taken up in order, which facilitates each successive stage in the progression. Thus, after remembrance of the Lord’s name and form, one should remember His attributes, associates, service and pastimes.
There are five stages in the evolution of remembrance:
1) To think of the Lord in whatever manner and to whatever extent is known as smaranam, or remembrance.
2) To withdraw the mind from all external objects and fix it in a general way on the Lord is called dharana, or concentration.
3) To specifically contemplate the Lord’s name, form and other attributes is called dhyana, or meditation.
4) When remembrance proceeds without interruption like a continuous flow of nectar, it is called dhruvanusmrti, or constant remembrance.
5) When the object of one’s meditation alone is manifest, without awareness even of one’s own (physical) self, it is called samadhi, or trance. BS, Anuccheda 278
Bhaktivinoda Thakura gives his explanation of these five stages specifically in conjunction with meditating on one’s siddha-deha, in his notes on 15.93 in Harinama-cintamani:
Simple remembering is the stage where one recalls his spiritual identity and its eleven aspects in relationship to one’s service in the circadian pastimes (asta-kaliya-lila) of the Divine Couple. At this point, there is still no constancy in one’s meditation, as one sometimes remembers, and at other times is distracted.
As one progresses, one comes to the stage of self-reminding, dharana, in which one attempts to gain steadiness in remembering.
When one concentrates on all aspects of the object of meditation, that is called dhyana or meditation.
When one meditates at every moment, the state is called “constant recollection” or anusmrti.
When one’s meditation is perfect and uninterrupted, and one thinks only of Lord Krsna’s pastimes and nothing else, that state is called samadhi. HC, 15.93
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Post by niscala on Apr 5, 2013 16:02:58 GMT -5
Uttama : As one progresses, one comes to the stage of self-reminding, dharana, in which one attempts to gain steadiness in remembering.
I'm struggling with this one right now in the setting I am in, which is one practically devoid of any sat sanga, and on a practical basis revolves around money making to pay bills. I did much better when I was in ISKCON to be honest, and with all its faults, it is in some respects the ideal setting to practice this meditation. The vaidhi setting of regulated meditation on the Lord's name and form in sat sanga and in a sattvic environment is perfect for raganuga, so we are looking forward, in less than 3 weeks now, to relocate to Murari Sevaka for as long as the immigration will allow us. As far as ISKCON is concerned, the quality of the local leadership is vital, in my experience. Superficial understanding and character in the leadership affects the quality of sadhu sanga in the community. Such leadership determines who can come and join on the basis of who might be a trouble-maker, for example, especially if one speaks up about cow abuse, for example, which is our experience. So I am hoping to be more successful in a vaidhi bhakti setting, which is a step up at least from where I am at now, and because of Gadi's good character, hoping that Murarai Sevaka might be a good place to start. Not exactly sure why I am sharing this here, apart from a need to share it. But there is the point, in regard to the struggle on this path, that sat sanga is vital. SP set up ISKCON to enable samadhi, gradually, by progressive stages of vaidhi, facilitated by sat sanga. He stated as one of the goals to facilitate each members remembrance of their eternal relationship with Krsna. ISKCON is for bhakti, which is very hard to practice alone. I'm also bringing it up, because feelings of hopelessness or inadequacy, if they are pulling one away from the path, need some thorough analysis. Just because one has fallen from 16 rounds doesn't mean one is insincere and that the situation is hopeless. Devotional service is never lost, so that means one can take it up again at any point from the point where one left it off. And the cause of falling away may not be insincerity, but lack of sat sanga. As long as there is interest to return to the path, there is sincerity, even if one can't do it right away.
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Post by Uttamasloka on Apr 8, 2013 0:41:21 GMT -5
Niscala: You made some very good points about the practical issues related to raganuga-sadhana and bhajan. Association is very important as everyone knows and it's one of the main angas of bhakti that is pretty much mandatory for most of us.
My feeling is that ISKCON is great for neophytes as an introduction to vaidhi-bhakti if one is inclined to live and work within an institution. That is of course very limiting for most people and not very practical. Still it serves a great purpose because of its missionary ideals and goals. Some people are able to spend their whole life there and it works for them as they progress from the neophyte stages to more advanced levels. But it doesn't accommodate the majority of devotees, especially now as bhakti is expanding all over the world.
Those who don't fit into that model must maintain themselves in society as all others do and therein lies the challenge, especially these days with economies all over the world faltering and the middle and lower classes so oppressed in many ways. And now things are about to get even worse.
The bottom line re association is the principle of "birds of a feather flock together". In an institution that principle is overridden to a great extent by the organization's mandates and thus people must compromise and align with the group and its managerial hierarchy or leave. That's as it should be. Outside of the institution the onus is on each devotee to do the best they can to find like-minded association and that really comes down to Krsna's mercy on us according to our desires for advancement.
Luckily, in this modern age, we have online communities and tools like Skype to help compensate for the lack of direct physical association. Unfortunately, that doesn't facilitate kirtans and prasadam gatherings, but at least it provides personal sanga which I've found to be very effective.
When one awakens to raganuga-bhakti, association becomes even more critical, so it behoves one to reassess one's situation and do whatever is realistically possible to adjust one's life to facilitate the new priorities of raganuga-sadhana-bhajan. That's not always an easy thing to accomplish, so one must take shelter of Krsna and beg for His assistance to bring about the required changes. It may take time - even a year or two - so patience is required.
In the meantime, you have to do the best you can until ideal arrangements come into place by your personal endeavors and by Krsna's mercy. Your sadhana and bhajan may not be ideal, but Krsna understands your intent and sincerity. You have to be determined to make it happen because it is the absolute most important phase of your devotional journey. Everything else is secondary and possibly even irrelevant. When Krsna sees such focus and determination, surely He will do what He thinks is best for one's progress. We have to have that faith and the surrender it implies.
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Post by niscala on Apr 9, 2013 5:23:33 GMT -5
In an institution that principle is overridden to a great extent by the organization's mandates and thus people must compromise and align with the group and its managerial hierarchy or leave. That's as it should be. Not at all in agreement about this particular paragraph, but the argument would be utterly irrelevant to the purpose of this forum, so I will happily hold back. I've made it often enough to last me several lifetimes and no doubt will make it again sometime. Sigh. Thank you for the rest of your response. Its very encouraging, as always.
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Post by prisnidd on Apr 17, 2013 1:56:04 GMT -5
Imagine yourself beeing 14 years old again and back to school. One boy is the most popular boy in school. Every girl in school is in love with him. You too. One day just by chance you bump into him. You drop your books, where you have proclaimed your love for him, written hearts and stuff in the margins, how much you love him. He bends down to take up the dropped books for you. One book is open, and he sees what you have written, all the hearts, and his name and all that. You blush something incredible, but the boy just smiles, and you find that he has the most captivating smile, and blush even more. Then you look him in the face and find that he look bluish.
How hard can it be? Once we find affection for Krishna, and start to do our foolish things. Instead of listening to the teachers, we fantisize what we would do if we meet that boy by chance. We write his name, we wish that he somehow would recognize us. Our desire carries us away, and we don't hear what is impossible, that we are not qualified, that it is improper and so on. Our thoughts are private. Once we get captivated, nothing can stop our thoughts to fly towards the one we have affection for. We don't care so much for the real meaning of sanskrit words in theory. We are deeply attached beyond that.
Or another story: You are a 14 year old girl again, you are carrying water from Yamuna to your mother. You feel the weight of th heavy urn of whater on your head, and is threading carefully on the forest path. Every girl in the village is secreatly in love with the same boy, and you too. You are thinking about that boy, which have to remain your secret, since you are already engaged to another boy. That boy is also nice, but still you cannot keep your thoughts from drifting towards THAT boy. In a moment of unconcentration, you trip on the forest path, and you drop your urn of water. A moment of fear and embarrasment. Maybe you will crash the urn, and if not you have to go back and fill it again, since surely all water will pour out. Bur from nowhere HE comes out of the forest, and very expertly catches your urn of water without spilling a drop. Now he stands there with his smile, holding out the urn for you to take it from him. Embarassed you approach him, stretch out your hands to take the urn. But while you do that, his hand is touching yours and you look into his face and drown in it for a moment. Did he do that purposefully? You blush even more, and you think you will faint, you swoon, but you manages to get a grip of yourself and the urn, put it back on your head. Say a thanks, blushing even more, and the moment is over.
Sorry, I am not a good storyteller, and for sure do not follow the proper mood and meter. But I don't care what the scriptures say about that. I do it anyway, since just thinking like that brings me feelings of .... pleasure? My thoughts stay for a moment, lingering, and at least I don't care for what is right or wrong, proper and improper, at this moment. Everything is so serious, but simple affection or love cuts all barriers of what is possible and what is impossible. The gopis go out in the night of the rasa dance, not caring for any social rules of what can be done and what can not be done, what is proper and what is improper, they drop whatever they are doing, to go out into the night in the forest, since they heard the flute of Krishna. They are beyond everything, beyond thinking, they just know what they have to do, since that is what their heart is telling them. If we can capture just a little bit of that mood, and then just want more of it, like an obsession.
Desire does not come from carefully thinking out what is most proper. It comes from somewhere else. Actually deep desire comes from our heart, from the soul, and not from the mental body or from thoughts and intelligence. They are there to guide us doing the right thing. But desire is something different.
We can use some trickery, since while the mind gets filled with our desires, it also works backwards if we identify with our mind, like we do. If we fill the mind with - Syama - we also start to desire Syama. And that the intelligence can do. Sadhana, to fill our mind always, somewhat artificially, and desire will wake up. And when desire fills the soul, our inner core, our true us, it gets very strong, and can break all barriers of rules and regulations. When desire starts it gets easier to make the desire stronger, to desire to desire more deeply. And we just dive into that, dropping everything else as less important. While vaidhi bhakti means to do sadhana without desire, only following rules, and what the guru tells us, raganuga bhakti means to only follow desire, taste, and make it grow in a calculated way.
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Post by niscala on Apr 18, 2013 0:46:34 GMT -5
Of course you are right, Prsni. I didn't mean to discourage genuine desire for a relationship with Krsna. What a horrible disservice that would be. I think it would land me in hell. Not that a genuine desire could be discouraged by anything I write. My desire in writing these posts was to put the cautionary words into perspective. As far as desiring a relationship with Krsna, all caution should be thrown to the wind, I agree with you totally. The acaryas warned against premature involvement, or getting involved just to be seen as an advanced devotee, or imitating advanced symptoms. Cautionary words are appropriate for some, and inappropriate for others.
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Post by prisnidd on Apr 19, 2013 6:48:58 GMT -5
I realize that I was off topic.I am not as serious like you others, and cannot keep a serious topic. Afterwards I was thinking I should write and explain myself, but then I thought I had made enough of a fool of myself. I sometimes wonder about fake lobha, fake emotions, fake ecstacy and so on. But then I think that this fake taste for Krishna's name, this fake desire and fake ecstacy is so nice so I don't care. It appears like, today, that unless you have a guru teaching you raganuga, you are pretty much on your own. Meaning you have to be able to sustain your sadhana on your own. Also meaning you have to be clear with what is materialistic contamination and what is not, and enough taste to go on without someone forcing you. I often envision a group of devotees getting together in a small asrama do serious bhakti sadhana including raganuga, discussing with each other and supporting each other in a loving way. But I find it hard to find any takers with the same idea. I appear not to be on the same page as anyone else. When it comes to reach samadhi, if we all the time say - I am not qualified even to start trying, we will never reach it. If we envision a palace to be built, we have to start with first putting the spade in the ground and dig the first hole. Without the first shovel of earth dug it will never happen. So if we want to reach samadhi in this life, we have to start endevouring for it now. And if our bhakti is childish and naïve, at least we have started, and by Krishna's encouragement it will one day reach maturity. So desire is all we need to start. Everything else comes in due cause of time. Desire has to be there already in the chanting, since if we chant without desire for bhava we will never reach it, it is described. If we are so afraid of making a wrong step, we will never be on our way. But if we walk anyway, and correct wrong steps on the way, we will reach our goal.
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Post by niscala on Apr 20, 2013 1:57:46 GMT -5
Full of wisdom! Full of wisdom! I can't believe you haven't found takers on your ashrama idea. It sounds so nice!
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Post by Uttamasloka on Apr 20, 2013 14:56:00 GMT -5
Sorry I haven't been able to respond sooner. There is a great verse in the 11th Canto of SB. From VCT's RVC:
If, on the path of devotion, there is a slight deficiency on the part of the devotee, that will not be a fault. That can be seen in the scriptures.
In the 11th canto of Srimad Bhagavatam the nine Yogendras tell King Nimi: “O King! A person who takes shelter of the path of devotion will never be in danger. Even if he runs over this path with his eyes closed he will not trip or fall.”
The Lord also tells Uddhava in Srimad Bhagavatam 11.29.20: “O Uddhava! In this endeavor of devotion to Me there cannot be the slightest loss or destruction!”
The word yan in the former verse means that there can be no fault if one takes shelter of the process of hearing and chanting.
The main cautionary thing is whether or not one is still being pulled and diverted by one's anarthas. To make an honest effort in raganuga-bhakti, one should at least be freed from such distractions on a general basis. Desires and attractions will remain for a long time, but if they have the pulling power and you keep going off course, then you must first deal with those issues.
That's what people criticize the most - engaging in raganuga practices, but still remaining attached and involved in sense gratification that is unfavorable to progress. That's what nistha is all about - steadiness in one's focus.
If your anarthas are not a big issue, then you can move forward at the pace your sadhana takes you. Samadhi is only possible in the advanced stages of asakti and bhava, so rather than think about it now, I would suggest focusing on steady shorter periods of meditation during japa, and let them grow to more extended periods in the natural course of progress. Being able to meditate deeply is not a mechanical process, it is a gift from Krsna so you can't force it.
Prisni, I understand what you're saying about not finding many like-minded associates. You're not alone in that regard. One of the reasons I wrote my book was with the hope that such association would emerge as a result of devotees understanding these truths and those who are qualified will begin to manifest all around the world. It's only been a little over 3 months and I'm encouraged so far.
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